我知道。。。

此刻的心情。

伤心的夜晚。

在乎你的人才会记得你说的话？
但
身边的好朋友常忘了我说的话。

Friends..i will still be here whenever u want me ...
I willing to be your listener but the thing is is it u want me to be your listener ?
If u do,
i'm ready for u .

Mamak stall

I didn't update my blog few days already,it is because i was not in good condition on past few days,menstrual pain is the one kill my mood every month and make me suffer like hell every month ! How come i will be so suffer but not like other still can do anything they like,but what i can do when suffer is just sleep,because i won't feel the pain when successfully  fall asleep... 

Back to the topic,went to Ghany Corner on last Sunday. It is a famous mamak stall located in Kampar new town,nearby KTAR.We(5 housemates) used to went Ghany once we stay in Kampar every Sunday,but now...haiz...forget about the sad thing...

 The place got Indian then will have pigeons ....

 Teh tarik...Must drink when go to mamak stall.Their teh tarik is NICE !

 Roti canai.

 My breakfast...

 Roti telur...There is chicken curry  and bean curry if not mistaken.

Susu's mee goreng.

Seem many sad things happened recently,but i don't want and don't wish to tell,or may be will tell in future if i really really sad and to release my sadness through blog ? But i don't wish i need this post as i wish to settle it. I'm the one won't emo always as i don't like the feeling of emo ,and, friends,please keep in touch and use your truly heart to make friends with me,i will do that to u too may be i can't show by my action but my heart  will have the words " you are my 100% best friend !" .

EMO ! please go away !

生日快乐我对自己说

晓雯的大日子，916。

晓雯的大日子有多大？大到马来西亚也把它列为马来西亚日呢！开玩笑咧！哈哈，是真的开玩笑啦。

这就只是心情篇，因为不开心。生日还不开心吗？对啊。以前的我生日不会不开的的，因为都有人陪着我，家人或朋友，总不会孤单一人，看看我去年的生日是怎样过的 => http://xiaowen916.blogspot.com/2010/09/my-sweet-18th-birthday.html

去年的生日应该是最开心的吧！但今年的生日却是我最不开心的。今年的生日是我一个人过，宿舍就只剩我一个，他们全部都考完试享受着假期，唯独只有我还在考试当中。认识我久了的人都应该知道我很少会不开心吧，要我自己一个在宿舍是没问题啦，经常这样的，但要我自己过生日就真的太可怜了，这可是第一次，有什么办法？UTAR MY CHOICE...相信每一年都会在我生日是考试，只不过去年刚好碰到马来人新年，考试提早了，我才有那么精彩的生日，今年就没了。

原本想在915过了十二点才睡的，可以第一时间看大家的祝福，但由于我只能吃粥，容易饿，还没到十二点就去睡觉了。

醒来就看到朋友们的祝福，很开心，还收到乾哥，明兴send 的bubble talk，是他唱的生日歌，立刻笑了，虽然不是第一次收到，但每次都很开心。倒霉的是，对面卖粥的档口又没开，那我吃啥？生日还吃即时面，有够可怜的。

 Shandy,是新年时留下的，终于派上用场，帮自己庆祝一下，开了来喝，我好想把自己的弄得更可怜似的。没办法，我也不想的。生日快乐我对自己说，我还特地去找温岚的“祝我生日快乐”来听，岂不是把自己的心情弄得更遭吗？傻傻的晓雯。。那首歌适合我的心情嘛。。。

 还有我的“老公”陪我，陈豪。。哈哈哈。。

我希望以后的生日都不会一个人过。。。
 我知道在我考完试候会有朋友帮我庆祝，也有几位朋友有意识想帮我庆祝，但因为我需要考试，都没了。生日自己一个过，有谁能明白那种痛？哑子吃黄连，有苦自己知。。。一个人的中秋节，一个人的生日，那种孤单不开心的感觉，没人能明白的。

 生日就只有Business accounting notes 陪着我。。。但我不喜欢它！我不需要他陪我！

本来情绪都还压抑的住，但看了嘉薇的祝福，告诉他其实我不开心时，那时的情绪到达了最高点，然后她叫我去开门。。发生什么事？我懂有事发生了，是她来了哦？不管啦，赶快整理下就开门，谁知，是嘉薇的朋友，振在，他当了嘉薇的邮差，送礼物来了，感动死了，不知振在有没有看到我丑怪的样子，我也不敢问他，怕尴尬，有没有看到都算了啦，但真的很谢谢他当了邮差。。哈哈

 是化妆包，是嘉薇和Felix送的。Felix 也是嘉薇的朋友，也是我哥女朋友妹妹的朋友，很巧，我们在FB聊啊聊，他现在也是我朋友了。

可以用雪中送炭来形容吗？原以为这次生日就糟透了，怎知还有惊喜。谢谢我爱的嘉薇。

还有嘉薇的祝贺卡。心情好点了，但还是要继续读书，我超不想读的，这次考试成绩一定烂透了！

在Fb也收到很多祝福，有300-400个祝福吧，有的还祝福了两三次，好朋友们的祝福更让我觉得很窝心，谢谢你们。

第一位祝福我的人：Susu Soo

第一位唱生日歌给我听的人：明兴

第一位打电话祝福我的人：Michelle Ho

第一份收到的礼物：嘉薇&Felix

第一位在blog认识的朋友也在我的blog祝福了我：Amanda

到了晚上还收到我爱人嘉嘉的Video,是他唱的生日歌,他的生日歌有够特别的！

"happy birthday to   papan,

happy birthday to papan,

 happy birthday to papan wen."

为什么叫papan?哈哈，秘密！那傻婆还常到偷笑！

之后又收到嘉薇的video，是teddy祝贺我的video,称呼也有够特别的！

"happy birthday 晓雯阿姨，muack"

好特别的你们，把我逗得很开心，看了好多遍，笑了好多次。

我把video放了去电脑，但看不到，我只好用wedcam录起来。。我把他们俩的video放在一起了,但有点小声。

我的生日就这样平淡中带一点感动地过了。感谢老天让我认识到你们这班朋友，我爱你们。

晓雯的生日过了，晓雯的心情也没那么遭了，过了就过了。

晓雯又长大了！

Happy birthday to me ~

Today is Thursday,i had Corporate and Business Law exam this morning,i hope that i can get PASS,not that i don't have target to get higher mark,but i know i'm lazy.God bless me.

Do u all know that tomorrow is my birthday ? U don't know also nevermind,as i'm just a ordinary girl,i'm not famous,if u know,THANKS that u concern about me...I was alone when the mooncake festival,it not a good experience to me,because i wish that someone or group of people was with me when festival no matter is friends or family,or without celebration,but at least there is someone with me,so that i won't feel lonely when festival.

And tomorrow is MY BIG DAY,but SO WHAT ? I having exam on this period,for sure everyone prepare for their exam,and my friends are in Ipoh,how to celebrate ? Although i know there will have celebration after my final,but TOMORROW,the ACTUAL DATE of my birthday,I WILL BE ALONE ! haiz...

After exam and i walked back home and went to restaurant to pack my brunch ,but unfortunately the stall selling porridge was close,what i can eat ? Went i walked back home,Susu was waiting me ! hahaha...He accompany his god-brother to Kampar for some purpose,may be Susu came back because of me also ? hehe. Luckily he was here,and he fetch me out to buy porridge.THANKS THANKS THANKS a lot SUSU ! I forced him took photo with me because i wanna write it out.

And he is the first person who wish me Happy Birthday,And me myself is the second one who me Happy Birthday.Who is third one ? waiting now..=) 

Again,

Happy birthday to me !

I don't like

Online in UTAR computer lab again.Because class cancel again.Again ? Yes,this week is the first week of Degree life,should say today is the 3rd day of Degree life,there was 2 classes within 3 days.First in yesterday,went class after 2 hours break,but the 2 hours class canceled,there was another 2 hours break after the class,so there is 6 hours break,Luckily still have Xiao Tung with me,if not i don't know what i can do during the long break time.  Went to campus at around 11something to wait for 12pm class,but class canceled AGAIN !!! So i'm here in the computer to updated my blog .

There is one post still waiting me to post but due to some problem,so i update another post now.U can just ignore this post as well,becasue i will talk about sad thing in this post.

29.5.2011,it was Sunday.

1.) I thought it would be a great Sunday as early in the morning i spent my time with my friends happily,but happy time was just only for that 1/2 hours,i lost my house key ,but i don't know where it drop.

2.) Was so EMO because of the PTPTN(loan).There was quite many thing need to fill up.Asked my dad about the his salary(required by the form PTPTN),his tone was just like scolding me,becasue he don't know how much he earned as that is his own small business.I don't like the way he talk to me,is not the first time,may be he was too stress on his work,and what i feel is he would like to find something to scold as i'm the victim ! I just cried cried cried after that.

My parents saw me cried as well,but they didn't ask me the reason,may be they thought i stayed at home for so long(sem break) and i don't want back to Kampar,I was cried when the first day i moved to Kampar.I DON'T LIKE that,i cried in Ipoh,cried in car,cried in Kampar...I can't stop myself to cry,I DON'T LIKE!

My eyes was @.@ after cried for so long,first time i cried for so long and the first time i saw my eyes like that.But luckily i got some drama from Gia Wei and it stop me cried by just concentrated on the drama but not thinking others.

3.) My laptop can't online in Kampar,there was something lost in my laptop caused me can't online till now.Hope Friday faster come so that i can faster let my brother check my laptop see what's going on.

BAD DAY PLEASE GO !!!

XIAO WEN PLEASE BE STRONG!!!

WISH ALL AROUND ME / MY READERS HAPPY ALWAYS.

一个人单身久了

我在别人的部落格看到的，我觉得说的很赞，我很赞同。。。

我说：“单身也没什么不好，只是寂寞点。”

一个人单身久了

会懒得恋爱

一个人单身久了

朋友会越重要

一个人单身久了

会越来越喜欢听歌

一个人单身久了

电话会常常忘记带

一个人单身久了

就会养成一个怪癖

一个人单身久了

对爱情会越来越挑剔

一个人单身久了

除了寂寞点外

还是蛮开心的

一个人单身久了

会慢慢变得成熟起来

一个人单身久了

会比以前更爱父母

更重视亲情

一个人单身久了

对所有的节日大多没什么期待

一个人单身久了

看到别人一对对的很甜蜜

心里多少还是会有些介意

一个人单身久了

会喜欢买很多鞋子

带自己去很多很远的地方

一个人单身久了

会觉得无拘无束自由自在

一个人单身久了

爱情会变得越来越不重要

取而代之的是钱和事业

一个人单身久了

会越来越理性

越来越现实

一个人单身久了

是很幸福的时光

虽然有一点点无聊和寂寞

但是游走在自己的街道上

什么都可以无所谓

没有任何束缚

即使很多人都在疑惑

"你为什么没有告别一个人的时光?"

因为……

一个人单身久了

会上瘾的

你认同吗？？？

OKAY~WELL

ARGGG...
i don't know lah,
may be is me "geh bo",
so every time i also will ask what happened between you all once something goes wrong,
if that is misunderstand i must help u all to explain..
haiz....

i remember that ,
i don't know what was going wrong between me n "niu nai"
i had told u all about the problem,
i hope i can solve it,
yes,
i had ask u all help me,
but what i got ?
i got a message from Lxxx said that is something nonsense n asked my solve it myself..
want me say WTH again ??
what nonsense ?
that is nonsense to u ?
but for me is important,
i scare that have something wrong i did n make him don't talk with me..
nonsense ? is nonsense ?
may be..
but is just for u,
because u won't bother it n won't correct it whenever u make someone angry...
so at last i asked myself...
no need help from u..
but i really angry after saw what u say...
sometime not i don't want say may trouble out..
the point is if i say it out,
anyone can help me ?
if it not a very big problem n won't make me suffocate..
i rather keep in my heart rather than get some feedback that make me have another trouble
...
HAIZ..
i also don't know what to say.
this time is the serious one compare to before
after that night ( u "hit" me ) till now..
we never talk to each other,
i don't know is my fault or your fault,
i don't know u are playing at that time or serious..
I DON'T KNOW !!
nobody tell me..u didn't tell me also...
may be i have wrong perception..
but ,
if is my fault,
well~just tell me...i'm ok
but u didn't do it
but i'm sure one thing is whenever a boy do that on a girl is WRONG,

one thing make me more angry is u didn't asked us wanna pack dinner or not ,
u just ask Gia Wei..
just only her..
then u packed food yourself...
we are transparent ?
don't tell me that u don't know we want to eat ...
i tell u that I WANT TO EAT...
i don't know why u don't ask us...
OKAY~your style...

OKAY~OKAY~
i keep silent...

MOODY

WHY i'm always the bad luck one ???

Once again..

i'm the bad luck one...

my world seem become BLACK ＆WHITE..

yesterday night ...

start from 9:00pm UTAR Foundation in ARTS students started to register for SEM 3 own timetable,

heard that the UTAR server was updated,

many of them can finish within 10 minutes n get the timetable as they planned...

ME..

just like last SEM,

the application was started on 9:00am..

but 6 something i just can start to register for the timetable,

i can't even register for 1 subject before 6pm..

WHY i'm always is the one who bad luck ??

I really feel wanna cry,

feel very down,

feel helpless,

feel disappointed,

feel happy that my friends finish registered one by one,

but feel sad that i can't register for even 1 subject...

my ID problem ?

my name problem?

my face problem ?

my laptop problem ?

my luck problem ?

ARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

really pissed me off..

i'm not the fastest every time..

i'm almost the last every time...

GOD !!! PLEASE GIVE BACK SOME LUCK TO ME...

GREAT THANKS TO YOU...

I WANT GOOD LUCK

四叶草...please give good luck to me...

IF

Like my status and I'll tell you (If I ever know you):
1) How we've met
2) My first impression of you
3) What I like about you
4) Favorite memory with you
...5) And a song that reminds me of you
6) Dare you to put this on your status


IF u ask me to answer for "u"... then my answer is
1) How we've met : prefect camp when form 3 ...same group with u
2) My first impression of you : friendly,kind,humor...
3) What I like about you : u hug me when i was sick...i felt super duper warm ...this was feeling i can't forget
4) Favorite memory with you : too many...every second when be with u n u tell me the "story of us" ...  
...5) And a song that reminds me of you : tank- 非你莫属


ACTUALLY i won't put is question as my status although so many are playing it now,
i just will click "like" when my friend put this as their status,
because i want to know what impression of me in their mind..
i guess that u won't see it ....
but nevermind ,
don't ever want to let u know...


we won't have chance to be lover again ..
I KNOW...
but the memories that u gave me ,
i will remember it...
thanks that u gave me many happy memory,
honestly the first n second love will make me feel regret,
but u r not...


ANYWAY...PASSED...

我。。。又梦见了他

日有所思，夜有所梦。。。
我有那么想念她么？
奇怪呢。。。
但如果梦境是真的，
那该多好啊。。。


我梦到他和他的一位朋友来我家找我，
来找我谈天，
梦里的他对我很好哦，
很关心我，
不像他之前。


如果这梦能实现那该多好？
就算我们不是情侣，
就是好朋友也很好啊，
多一位好朋友关心是件美好的事。


但，
梦归梦，
醒来了，
又回到现实。。。

梦见他。。。=）

昨晚临睡前我心想，
可以让我梦见他吗？
我好想他。。。
起身坐在电脑面前突然想起，
我真的有梦见他。
那梦是说，
考试，
派数学成绩，
他那接近满分，
应该有98/99 分吧。。。
很高兴，
希望他STPM也能那这样的成绩。。。
祝福你。
过后我又跟他对望，
交谈，
但就一下，
不知为何我走开了，
应该就是怕我会更难过吧，
所以我选择走开。


想你？习惯？还在伤？
我也想知道。。。

其实我会傻吗？？？

今天早上八点起身，

今天是星期六，

为什么还要调闹钟那么早起身？

因为要去拍戏。

这是computing technology's assignment.

多两星期要交了，

 所以不能再拖了。

我们去了一个平时应该不会有人会去，

也不会想到要去的地方，

一个很多牛粪的地方，

哈哈哈，

去到那会好像去到湖中央。

我们的题目是student life without technology,

就因为没科技，

没电脑，没娱乐，

我们就玩老鹰抓小鸡，

哈哈，

好久好久没玩，

我们是因为拍戏才扮一下，

如果真的玩，

会更开心。哈哈

拍到大概两点多，

我终于可以回家了，

累垮了。。。

嘉薇说我黑了，

天啊！！！

我不要啊！！！

晚上吃了晚餐，

不懂怎么想起他，

想到他STPM快到了，

就拿起手机send : all the best in your stpm soon.

他很快地复我：thank you.

其实我想和他谈，

但我没有复他，

以我认识地他会在这期间很忙碌，

算了吧，

就祝福你好了。。。

在面子书看到这一段，

很有意识，

很赞同，

你不会知道等待一个人是什么样的感觉，

因为我不会让你知道我在等你，

我不怕等你，也不怕你不知道我在等你，

就怕你知道了，却和我说，不要再等我了...

其实我想让你知道，

但让你知道了又怎样，

还是什么都不说好了。

默默地。。。也不错。。。

就默默地吧。。。

晓雯加油！！！

其实我会傻吗？？？

处女女 VS 处女男

除了自己亲身经历，身为处女座的我，和处女座的他（第二任），在拍拖不到半年就 bye bye 了。
今天，又一证明处女女和处女男在一起是没好结果的。

今天从朋友口中得知，处女座的她和处男座的他果然有过一段情（有传绯闻）。
她告诉我，他们在一起三个月，那三个月她都在忍受着。
其实处女座的人为什么不能在一起？
因为大家性格不合，
就像水和油，
或像猫和狗，
火星撞地球。
依我看法，就是，
处女座很挑剔，
两个处女座的在一起就会你挑剔我，我挑剔你，
这样的生活谁都顶不顺，
散了算了。
但散了能做朋友，但我的朋友。。。
他们俩好像都不开心，
因为assignment，
他不喜欢她的做事方式，
她不喜欢他有什么不爽不直接说出来。
搞到大家都不开了，我也不懂怎么办。。
不想帮任何一边，就只想中立，
如果我能帮，
我想帮你们和好。
你们之间还存在着另一个他，
那个他在追她吧，我想，
也不懂什么问题，
那个他和其他的朋友也包括处男座的他有了距离，
在网上看到处男座的他说：“

过分就好～不要太过分
neemamateh～如此般重色轻友的人～我会假装没看到～ ”

就是在说着那个他和处女座的她。

唉。。。希望你们都没事，还是朋友啦。。。